I don’t like it. I mean really, really do not like it. Being in charge of my life is important. My entire philosophy is based upon being in charge of my own reality…creating my own world. Sometimes that just doesn’t happen though. I don’t mind not being in control, for letting other things take the lead is part of the process. But feeling truly helpless sucks. I felt that way tonight. In the grand scheme of things it wasn’t a big deal at all… Nothing seriously bad. But my inability to do a damn thing is something that’s hard to handle for me. What do you do when all you want to do is fix something but nothing you do can possibly help? Luckily this doesn’t happen too often and I rarely feel even close to helpless. But that makes it all the more terrible when it happens!
I’ve been reflecting a little bit on campus culture and I’ve come to realize it plays a large role in the happiness of students. Those who don’t quite fall in line with the general scene have a hard time getting the full potential out of their college experience. While classes and activities might keep a student busy during the week it’s those random times with friends and weekend adventures which really make a student happy. But what if you have trouble finding friends who you can just hang out with and enjoy yourself? It’s not like Gettysburg only has party-goers…that is definitely not true. However, I think those who don’t party as much have a hard time connecting with one another…and it seriously affects the experience they have here.
I learned a little more about this in talking to one of my residents who is planning on transferring after this year. The resident does not have any one thing that is bad; rather, the resident just doesn’t feel like the campus culture of Gettysburg is a good match. Why? Because the resident just wants to be able to hang out and have fun on the weekends and not drink or go out. This isn’t an isolated thing either…we really need to work on some better late-night programming and I still want to see a REAL student space. The CUB? Not even close to a student space. The Attic? Good for some things but it’s not a dedicated lounge for students.
Running late and need to finish up…but this is a serious issue for many students! Frat life isn’t bad…a lot of people like it and there’s nothing wrong with partying. But partying shouldn’t be the only events on weekend nights!
So I was just doing some reading for my Energy class and I was on the chapter about renewable energy generation. Solar, wind, hydro…I knew the deal. But then I started reading and I learned a bit more about their efficiencies, costs, and limitations. I never knew hydroelectric was so efficient! It can reach levels pushing 80%…like 3-4 times above fossil fuel plants (non cogeneration). And of course wind is cheap and actually pretty straightforward, but it’s too intermittent to contribute a large proportion of energy. Citing is always a problem but the government can create incentives to work around that. So why not combine these two? What if we generate electricity from wind during the day and use it immediately to lower peak demand. Energy generated at night, when demand and price are low, could be used to pump water vertically into a storage container. That water would then be dropped down during the day to create hydroelectric power. Since wind turbines are pushing 50% efficiency and hydro is pushing 80%, we could be looking at about 40% efficiency (discounting the pumping machinery which I’m unfamiliar with) which is entirely clean! I need to look into this. Potential capstone? Maybe.
I’ve tried several times. Journals seem to gushy. Not important, you know? Like I’ll look back in 20 years and be like “what a tool.” I think I just tried to make everything too deep…too personal. So I’m going to try something new this time. Focus on the little things. For some reason leading that GECO meeting just overwhelmed me. Was it the side-chatter? The realization of the difficulty of truly organizing and making things happen? I don’t know, but I felt very overwhelmed and a little frustrated. So I’m going to blog about it. From now on I am going to blog about the little things that pop-up, the feelings, the emotions, the thoughts. There is only one theme: life. Why try to narrow my crazy experiences into something that fits nicely into a themed blog? It’s too hard and too limiting. So here’s to trying something new.
Also, thanks to Andrea Carson for inspiring me to try again. We shall succeed together 🙂